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OKAY, im royally frustrated.
Im so tired of dummmbbb people.
There are so many in SOCAL.
Driving me crazy.
So tonite I was going to go to the show.
But i decided not to
CUZ some fucking gay people are going to be there.
And it would take every ounce of my strength not to go crazy on them.
Sometimes I wonder what possesed me to stay here.
I might leave. But Sd is soo beautiful. Fuck the people.
To the people that are "I dont even have a word to describe you and sum you up into one stereo type": Have you ever thought about a life worth living. Do something that makes you happy and isnt going to train wreck you in the ened. Seriously. Life Short, so try not to make it miserable and miserable for others. Especially if you live in the Paradise we do.
mmmkaythnx
So today I woke up and my mom made me breakfast. Definatly made my day pretty good. Well my sister has to act like a complete brat. She thinks since I wasnt here the past 3 months, that shes an only child now. Well shes gunna get a rude awakening. Cuz her Big Sis is back. Thats all I have to say about that.
So After we dropped Abby off. Len, Mom & I went to Balboa park to see the Vatican stuff on display @ the Museum of Art. Verrryy interesting. That whole time period intrigues me. I want to study Theology and political science. I love the Rennissance Period. So if anyone wants to go back to see that exhibit again. Im in. Today absolutley beautiful.
So YEA IM IN A REALLY BAD MOOD. but ill force a smile. & i hate stupid young girls. AHH. die.
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maybe love will find us again
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ILL BE YOUR MEMORY
so basically Kt is here have no Fear
Im back. FOREVER. You cannot get rid of me. So dont try. Your stuck with me :).
I got an interview! Horray for me!. Im excited. Im going back to Kansas to get me car and driving back. Great fun. So ill be back by this weekend. Quick Trip to get my clothes, board, cds and say some good byes. Im going to miss kyle so much. I love that guy. Hes my bestest friend EVER. just incredible. Well this weekend was pretty mellow. Im loving it.
Life is so great. How lucky are all of us to live in SoCal where the sun shines and the beach is at our grasp and friends surround us. We are to be so grateful for everything we have. It could be so much worse. We do not live in reality.
So Friday I forgot what I did. I think i forgot it was Friday. I was suppose to leave and go back to Kansas, but I went application collecting, hung out with ryan & mario.
Saturday I was soo tired. So i slept in and turned in applications & just chilled.
Sunday was church. Pretty good message, I just wish It went more in depth for a stronger connection. And the worship team has sloweeed down so much. And I hung out @ home and watched some movies. Miracle is such a good movie. I also talked on the phone. Then i relaxed in the jacuzzi with ryan. Then i hung out with Mario for a little bit and watched Kill Bill.
& now im done. I need to get my film developed and buy a digital baddd.
<3 kt
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well this weekend was eventful. Maybe a little too much..
Friday was Ms Abby's 15th B day. I love my sister more than ice cream. Then Melissa, Taylor & I went to a stupid party. bleh. But it was fun because Melissa & I our Starburst queens.haha. & I havent had lolitas in forever & they moved to a nice pretty place. Mexican food isnt as good diiirty. Jay Kay. Well Saturday I got to sleep in some. Actually got some sleep. horray for me. Then we got Ariey + Smoothies+ Beach=Good times. Aj, Andy & Bryan were surfing or something like that. & CHAD was there! I love the CHAD! Then to Ajs. Then to Taylors. Then to As I Lay Dying with Taylor & Melissa. Me & Taylor took off around 9 after As I lay dying played. Then watched Finding Nemo @ Ajs. And something else too. Too many then's. OH well. And today I went to church & Chris' grad party. GREAT mexican food. yummy. & I talked to kyle. I think that was the highlight of my day. Hes my best friiieend. & I talked to angel for a long time too. I love that bear. I think Im going to leave Thursday or Friday. My grandma is goin to be here Tuesday. So im super excited. Im going to go to the airport with my aunt to get her. horray! I want to see Troy badly & ms. bobuck too. & Jess & sarah & so many other people too.
Hugs & Kisses to some of you. :)
-kitty
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alrighty..Im in Sd to see my sister :)
Its already been too good to be true. I surprised her in the morning. She thought she was hallucinating. It was too cute. Then ms. Bobuck let me barrow her car since she is such a sweetie. So I went to nicoles and we got smoothies at Jamba Juice. I havent had Jamba Juice since forever. Peach is the best. Then we drove around & went to cols in IB to see some people. It was fun. And when we were on our way back going through Eastlake we run into Booker! It was fun. So we dropped out nicole & drove over to Ryans house to see him. IT was veryyy nice seeing Ryan. I missed him vurrry much. BAccckk to Eastlake to drop the book man off & I might add I bought subway for everyone and their mom. So my sister, christina & Taylor got subway. & I filled up Christina's tank for her. I also had an ortho appt. cuz I broke my retainerrrr. And when i finally got home (my acutal home on crystal creek) Abby wanted to go see Mean Girls. So we did. It was super cute. Just seemed like a little too much kansas mixed with stupid cali girls. AND finally I went to youth group. It was an okay message. Anyone could apply it to their lives, just wish it when in depth more. I caught up with alot of people yesterday. It was very awesome. Im so grateful for being here and being able to have the oppurtunity to see the people I love. I love Kansas too. Hardly the state though.
But today Im going shopping for party stuff with abby today. :) And Then i dont know what. Im just going with the flow. I gave abby her bday present today. She loved it i think lol.
<3 kit
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I am So Happy
Life is Great
Today I woke up @ 3. My sleeping patterns are all messed up. But at least Im starting to sleep again. I got ready & went grocery shopping & then the mall to buy a yellow shirt. Then I drove to lawrence to hang out with Shane, Steffan and Kim. We watched something Darkness. I dont even remember. Its not worth remebering, fucking lame ass movie. And I watched part of Jackie Brown. And then Kim & I went to see Envy. It was random. Today was definatly a movie kinda day. Tomorrow Im going to hippie church with Kyle. Today I was messing with my live journal stuff and I confused some editing things and thought i lost my layout. I almost died. New user pic!
Bling Bling
Money Aint a thang
-kt
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Updating...i dont like updating this thing. Its a hassel. I miss Sd. One more month...maybe. I dont know what to sayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy in here. I miss my sissttter! She danced in the Morp Pep Assembly. Im so proud :). Wellll...Kansas has been rainy and thundery. Its scary. ekk. And its getting cold. Today Im helping Kyle organize. fun fun...uhh..i have nothing to say. Someone tell me how i put pics on here.
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okayy, so things are realllly starting to look better. The things that have taken place lately are intense and amazing. I knew God put you in my life for a reason, & it dawned on me that this is real and there is a plan. Kyle if you are reading this, you dont fall short of amazing, infact that is an understatement. You made me realize so much about myself and what goes on around me. Again, you are amazing.
on the side note: Ive definatly got a crush :D
xoxox-kt
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:x: name = katie
:x: piercings = yes
:x: tattoos = no
:x: height = 5'4"
:x: shoe size = 8.5 or 9
:x: hair color = Blonde
:x: length = long
:x: siblings = 1, little sister
LAST...
:x: movie you rented = Somewhere In Time
:x: movie you bought = Gone With the Wind. How High. Texas Chainsaw Massacre.
:x: song you listened to = ABC- Jackson Five
:x: song that was stuck in your head = Its a vairety of jargon
:x: cd you bought = some classic Frank Sinatra
:x: cd you listened to = Tech 9
:x: person you've called = Shane
:x: person that's called you = Shane
:x: tv show you've watched = 60 Minutes lol
:x: person you were thinking of = Kyle
DO...
:x: you have a bf or gf (who?) = no
:x: you have a crush on someone = not really
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = yea
:x: you think about suicide = once in a while
:x: you believe in online dating = yea, especially if it makes someone happy
:x: others find you attractive = depends
:x: you want more piercings = yea
:x: you drink = sometimes
:x: you do drugs = no
:x: you smoke = nope
:x: you like cleaning = if im in the mood, I like keeping things neat
:x: you like roller coasters = yes i <3 them
:x: you write in cursive or print = both
:x: you carry a donor card = on my lisence
FOR OR AGAINST...
:x: long distance relationships = Why would anyone be against the persuit of happiness
:0: using someone = against
:x: killing people = against
:x: teenage smoking = does it matter
:x: premarital sex = free choice
:x: driving drunk = against
:x: gay/lesbian relationship = again why would someone be agasint the persuit of happiness
:x: soap operas = does it matter
FAVORITE...
:x: food = Italian & Mexican
:x: song = no clue
:x: thing to do = i dont know anymore
:x: thing to talk about = everything
:x: sports = surfing/snowboarding/swimming/water polo
:x: drinks = Lemonaide & wine
:x: clothes = my roxy lowrise that are about to die & mary jane hoodie
:x: movies = Gone with the Wind
:x: holiday = none, cuzz they all involve family
:x: new nerdy saying = STFU
HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a guy = yeaaaaaaaa
:x: ever lied to someone = ohh yea
:x: ever been in a fist fight = yea
:x: ever been arrested = no thankfully
NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love = one (its not love if u can count the number of times)
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = a good twenty plus
:x: of hearts I have broken? = Im unaware of the number, but I have
:x: of girls I have kissed? = 0
:x: of boys I have kissed? = ohhh man...uhh I cant even remember half of em!
:x: of drugs taken illegally? = 1
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = no one
:x: of people I consider my enemies? = no one really, just some dumb jealous bitches
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = 2
:x: of scars on my body? = 0
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = nothing, except meeting you
FAVORITE...
:x: disney movie = Sleeping Beauty & Peter Pan & Cinderella
:x: scent = August
:x: word = bobbysocks
:x: nickname = Bear, KT, polar, kitty
:x: guy name = Chase & Tricton
:x: girl name = idk
:x: eye color = green
:x: flower = hibiscus
:x: actress = Julia Roberts
:x: actor = Johnny Depp & Collen Farell
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty = noooo
:x: funny = I can be
:x: hot = no
:x: friendly = if your worthy of friendly-ness
:x: amusing = always
:x: ugly = no
:x: loveable = yes
:x: pessimistic = no way
:x: optimistic = usually
:x: caring = always
:x: sweet = depends
:x: dorky = no way jose
:x: Spell your first name back wards: eitak
:x: The story behind your username: kt xx bear, I took the idea from my sister & my name is kt and my nickname is bear
:x: Where do you live?: in kansas with todo & my red shoes
:x: 4 words that sum you up: compassionate, wild, optomistic, sad
DESCRIBE YOUR -
:x: Wallet: Hibiscus flowers, black and off white, roxy
:x: Hairbrush: whats funny is i dont have one, my hair isnt tangly
:x: Toothbrush: pink, electric, crest
:x: Jewelry worn daily: cross diamond necklace, my plastic braclets Ive collected from people I care about
:x: Pillow cover: white one
:x: Blanket: Reversable cuz ima G! one side is stripes and other side is hibiscus flowers
:x: Coffee cup: stainless steal traveling one
:x: Sunglasses: Electrics and Vz's
:x: Shoes: I have a collection
:x: Handbag: denim volcom & roxy & custom thing, I dont usually carry one
:x: Favorite top: I dont have one, i have too many clothes
:x: CD in stereo right now: coheeed
:x: What you are wearing now: shane's flannel pj pants and a hoodie
:x: Hair: messy tied up
:x: Make up: mascara
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are) -
:x: In my mouth: tongue ring
:x: In my head: YOU lol
:x: Wishing: my family would leave me the fuckk alone
:x: After this: talk on the phone
:x: Talking to: nobody
:x: Eating: nothing
:x: Fetishes: tapioca pudding, loving you & hot snowboarders
:x: If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason?: My mom, because shes a crazy bitch
:x: Person you wish you could see right now?: My sister
:x: Is next to you: my kitty cali whose pregnant, Im going to be a grandma or aunt..i dunno
:x: Something that you are deathly afraid of?: you not loving me
:x: Do you like candles: no cuz ill start a fire
:x: Do you like hot wax: ouch
:x: Do you like incense: they make me sneeze
:x: Do you like the taste of blood: no
:x: Do you believe in love: yes
:x: Do you believe in soul mates: yes
:x: Do you believe in love at first sight: yep!
:x: Do you believe in forgiveness: oh yea
:x: Do you believe in God: yea
:x: What do you want done with your body when you die: creamated
:x: Who is your worst enemy?: myself and my mom
:x: If you could have any animal for a pet: little white dog i can put in my purse or whatever lol
:x: What is the latest you've ever stayed up: 72 hours
:x: Ever been to Belgium?: not yet, but i will
:x: Can you eat with chopsticks: not really, they piss me off
:x: What's your favorite coin?: as long as it doesnt smell bad
:x: What are some of your favorite pig out foods?: sour worms
:x: What's something you wish you could understand better?: you
:x: Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?: YEA!!!
:x: Something you want to make happen for tomorrow?: lots
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Allow me to re-introduce myself K-to-the-A-T-I-E
WOW...
I cant believe this is happening to me...
When I look back I wonder where It all became blurred...
I guess it just goes to show you will never know what will happen next...
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Im so exhausted & sore. I just got back from Winter Park with Taylor and it was a 12 hour straight through drive & I drove most of today. Blahhhh. But it was such a great trip. IT snowed the whole time we were there. So 2.5 feet of fresh powder. A bunch of colleges were there and lots of hot guys. Most memorable moment was when I jinxed taylor and I when we got off the lift, saying watch, we will run into each other. And it never happens. So it did. And these guys came rushing to us helping us up and asking if we are okay and shit. Im so sick of guys. Most are so fucking lame. Im so sick of going out of my way for people and Im treated like shit. Its such a great feeling. But anyways...Tomorrow I have school :(. Ahh. And Taylors leaving soon. But good news, I might come out to San Diego over May 1st weekend, due to my cousin getting married. But just a weekend :(. Ummmm, Maybe some Yellowcard on Tuesday...I dont feel like doing anything. IM FUCKING MAD BECAUSE OF SOMEONE! Goodbye Im done writing.
I<3you&missyou
-kt
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ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Im bored
ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
I love you
ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
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All I have to say was wow for tonite. Best show ever. Kansas kids are lame though. Me and Taylor talked to the norma jean & everyone else folks. It was pretty chill. Well Ill go in chronilogical order of today. Woke up @ 8 to drive home, then fell asleep until 1. Then went grocery shopping, then to the mall. Then to get some ppl, and then to the show. We sold to Norma tickets for 100 bucks! haha, and then we met some buttons guy and went to Chubbys 50's Diner. We almost got jumped! But now its 1am and I have to study for a chem exam! blehhhhhh. update tomorrow maybe?
xoxo
kt
ps. I<3you
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My eyes hurt so badd.. they are all red. Bum-errr. Today was worthless. I woke up late, late to fuckin math class. Didnt take a Chem Exam & failed a Vocab. test I didnt know about. I loathe being new. Especially At the school I go to. All rich, white bitches. I just have to survive until the end of May. Blahhh
Everything is shit. At least Taylor is going to be here tomorrow. Its thundering outside & I have no one to cuddle with. Fucking gay. Ive learned lonliness teaches you strength. Lonliness is the human condition
Depend on NO ONE and NO ONE will let you Down.
Dont give me false hopes
They only prove my point further
Even though Id give you the world
You slam the door in my face
fuckk, I dont have any motivation..
I feel like a floating nothing bouncing off walls and people. I dont know where Im going, What I'm doing, the reason for it. Maybe I say I do, But i dont even know sometimes. Its unknown denial. And Denial..is that part of reality, to be in denial. I helps ease pain and confusion, but overall it just adds to it. And jesus, its everyone confused. So everyone must be in some form of denial. And must question it all like i do. I hate people that want to ignore the truth and reality and continue to live in their own superficial bubble with no purpose. I dont care If i dont know my purpose yet, but at least Im aware I have one..I think and im looking out for it.. The only thing I can DEpend on...and lean on is the thought that everything happens for a reason. blah blah blah. Im just tripping over my own words in thoughts in a circular arguement.
****Imissyou****
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Time flies! I never thought I would hate school as much as I now. Chemistry is killing me & Math. Never again! I think Im just going to take Algebra 2 again next year cuz Im so behind. In cali I didnt do shit in school. And chem is like a completley different language to me & speaking of foreign language, I cant do that either. Im useless! blah...Im down right now :( IT sux when you realize when things cant work out, no matter how much you want it to, its just inevitable..
But on the brighter side Taylor is coming out for break!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im so excited. Yesterday I got my haircut & dyed it. I got platnium and honey blonde highlights and low lights put in. They kept the black in, but there is only 3 inches left of it. I like it alot, pretty kool. And I ran so many freakin errands yesterday I was tired. I went to the gym too. Its a super sport so its veryy nice w/ tanning beds! haha, since kansas doesnt have a beach I'll be using those. Sunday is Norma Jean with Shane, Steffan and Taylor! Yeeeea & then next weekend hopefully Vail/Winterpark!
I miss my friends so much that it hurts...*tears*
I wish with all of my heart I could be back in San Diego, my friends are my family..but why does everything have to be so hard and painful. Ahhh. okay im done.
-kt
ps. heaven isnt far off if Im right there with you, cuz when Im with you, It is Heaven
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ahhhh, I cant fucking wait to turn 18, get away from everyone and take care of myself. I dont care what kind of lengths I have to go to to accomplish it, but Im going to do it. There is way tooo much fucking drama and back stabbing in my family. Family..what the fuck, your own family.
Anyways last night was pretty fun. Kim wanted to set me up with her ex finace that I know nothing about, none the less it didnt work out @ all. Definatley not interested..way too old & shy. We all drove up to O'Mailey's with Steffan and Kim. Then Shane and Pj came. Irish people really know how to drink! The guy that sings Irish songs was hitting on me all night in front of the whole pub. But I was too messed up to care. Steffan and Kim then decided to leave extra early I wonder why. And I was stuck with Pj & Shane. We all went back to Pjs apartment in ghetto missouri/kansas boarder. Interesting rest of the night. And I just got home. Im still learning the free ways. Takes alot of getting lost.
The thing about lonliness...it teaches you how to be independent and strong. If I were anymore of the both of those I think I wouldnt be able to love anyone. Im so not trusting of people. There is not one fucking person I trust on Earth or depend on. I depend some what on my dad, But you have to do that until your no longer a minor which is fucking lame. I just want out of my life.
People keep asking me-- Are you happier in Kansas? Its funny cuz half the people that ask me that dont even know why I left in the first place...
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yes yes yes I live in Kansas now, why is everyone still asking me that. Its been like a month! haha, anyways. Today I went to the mall with Steffan and Shane. I got velvet reefs..oh they are sexy and I bought the Darnkess Cd. The one where the guy sings about Believing in a thing called love. I dont know why. They have shitty old music over here. Last night I saw Secret Window with Steffan and Shane and someones little brother. I dont remember his name. But it wasnt that good of a movie. But Jonny Deep is in it, so its all gravy. HEs one sexi motha! :) ummm..Tomorrow I think I might go to Chicago and go to some art museums. I could sit in an art museum for hours. And Borders or Barnes and Nobles. So many books. All I do is read now. The Da Vinci Code is reallyy good. I suggest everyone read that. And if Im not in boarders Im driving around aimlessly getting lost and finding my way back and thinking. Ive been doing lots of that. Getting things in place. So maybe I can go back to Cali...If i can handel it. Too much shit for me right now. Fucking gay people! I HATE YOU! I cant wait until Taylor comes out here. We are going to have so much fun. haha. thats it for now kiddds. Maybe more later
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yayayaya! I just watched Joy Ride, scarrry movie. Fuckin weirdo truckers. Watch they come after me when im driving...update later!
Thursday is writing your life story!you're more
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